too much...

i'm currently working in a group home for teenage girls ages 14-18...needless to say, everyday i work i become more STERILE!!!

my geisha obsession...

i refused to see the movie "memoirs of a geisha" before i finished the book...being blessed with a small amount of patience, i found myself outside the movie theater minutes before the movie began, finishing the memoir...i loved the book for the in-depth view of the lives of geishas of the past and the movie for the beautiful scenes...plus, all in one day was a true delight...or in my case an obsession

what if...

my perception of my small space is off...what if...all that i am is a storage shed for energy that can not be destroyed or created...what if...i really am not as nice as some people would like to believe...what if...i never make it to vet school...what if...i do...what if...i save a few bucks on ebay...what if...i never go to my high school reunion...what if...i never become a mom...what if...going to india changed me...what if...my animals only use me for food...what if...i have nothing to give...what if...i do...what if...there are other life forms watching us...what if...i really like mayo...what if...i don't always find things to be funny...what if...i believe in past lives and young & old souls...what if...i obsess about what people think of me...what if...sometimes i feel bad for mr. bush and the messes he's created...what if...sometimes i daydream about love and death...what if...i obsess about random things for short periods of time...what if...i prefer to eat tofu and i love being a vegetarian...what if...i suffer from headaches...what if...i pray to more than one god and guru…what if…my life never amounts to anything more than being content